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door 1
a door opens
is an airy space of wooden legs
invitation to sitting & dining
the possibility of indigestion & discussion
of furni-
ture
door 2
perhaps
door
perceives its
own
agressive nature
closes it
self to
us
door 3
door
knobs
i nod not
like asleep
but as a
yes
turn & o
pen
like hand
writing
changed
a
field
door 4
we enter
door
split
from violence
the room
crowded veils
a film en
velopes
eyes
the shark
orders
more
f
o
o
d
door 5
day is
air connecting
dots
(do not hold the doors)
is smooth dream
job
glish is
night
do you ever dot your
eyes
before you
look?
door6
1.
boarded
X
train
to night to
view your collection
medio tiempo
at the center of how- to- please
tiempo completo
the law still questioning itself
trabajo.......alert?
at the median of howstoautoplease
evacuated meself from this
emergency
emerged informed but still un-
knowing
bound
delayed between this door
& the other
2. for m.g.
longer stronger
& lost
time is changing
all the time
shadow on impassable door
opening itself within
the light
within the artificial light
an
X on auto alert
this cold/spread handling us like
a game of hard scrabble
within the house i live
M
on a huge cube
Missing M
a window is somtimes a way out.
steve dalachinsky nyc 3/08/05 on e train & at experimental
intermedia listening to malcolm Goldstein
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hernia doubled ( 6th day )
the bird spoke to me
thru the heavy rain on the hollow cans
a kind of tin/morse
uhuh um sure i answered
short peeped phrases
i haven't showered in 6 days
being afraid being stronger than being dirty
sometime's earth's too down to death
moving on thru attractions
circles walking like wolves thru bad histories
inked by iron & quill
upon the legs of strangers
names streets players finalized
for the time being
at last century's turn it must have been
quite a time back then expositions
memory moving foward
like fate undoing itself
i am searching for rules
for the missing piece
indeed the light that precedes the coming
any coming
2nd 3rd
even 1st will do
who ever thought that sitting
would be such an obstacle?
what did methuselah feel when he left
his house?
in manhattan
how many sides are there,
it being like a book of thickened sand
with so many side/trips &
so little shoreline?
the rain on the island quiets a bit
as it echoes itself more& more faintly
into the oncoming hollows
in time
we go back like the # of angels
purported to be shadow boxing at g-d's side
lying flat
the pain is diminished
many long minutes ago
the bird has
shut up
i try to clear my throat using only my throat
knowing that to "cough"
will instantaneously doom me
to an
electric shock
should i drink shelter from the white guard's
jacket that engulfs me & protects me from the
process of curse & noise?
should i seek asylum in the word?
uhuh um yup my left hand answers
what a GIFT cemented to the oncoming night:
this diary of hungry nods
wandering thru holidays & characters &
caterpillaring across the noses of gargoyles
without ever leaving my room.
but my bladder is full
& the demon that is my zero tolerance
for discomfort
is insisting / I RISE UP.
( need i paint you a picture? )
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3/17/05 - bus to boston & 3/18/05 nyc - wind flowers ( water creatures reprise )
boxcars on either side of the tollbooth
bumpy ride for wind flowers
tho in wind undulation is not like a slow motion cartoon
there is gentle & then there is the standard
the moat that protects us from ourselves
proof that water exists
that we are not gentle equipment as time moves us
that we are indeed, in some meta-sense,
made of NUTS & BOLTS
that the arches that form our bodies
are being constantly re-invented
that lots are drawn way in advance
as some of us indeed move into the category of antique
our ABC's more or less intact but
expressed,
shaped slightly different
what i hope for is that tables remain on time
what i expect are more delays
hunts & stabs at
..
ham longings diminished
laws & sections of laws re-interpreted
that the one way is many-fold
that ologies & nologies are reformed reliably
yet manifest
RU ACH HA KODESH RU ACH HA KO DESH
bare are these days so full with playing fields
light a new haven in these overcast days of angels
ru ach ha ko desh ( whispered )
yes - i love angels too
they defy thruways
their linen wings outstretching like yawns
their things neatly folded in a corner
outsmarting the coroner always
LOVE is still a funny word that holds a KEY
as keys open cracks in the cracked field
defrosting the pond
new latent pelts reform our skins
& we are never belonging
never home
must never forget
we are quiet emergency
alcohol & smoke
must never forget
we are driver & driven
mask & sea & land
on the way to delay without delay
a short break within the breaks
god's breath on water
moot & mote
must never forget we are luggage litter cracks
bag gage
litter cracks lug gage litter light clean
bare-branched budding thinkers
squawkers cry babies
I- pods & seminal fluids made whole
cellmates & cell phone phreaks
blank screens that will never reach 100
carpeting on the roof of the father's mouth
boxcars on either side of the tollbooth
water creatures swimming in the flag/furling CON
of the green smothered Lane
in a green steepled whirl
i have become part of this EARTH
a glass half empty
the perfect Host (until next week's rush)
a forum for medicine
water & gate
PASS THRU ME pass thru me
RU ACH HA KODESH ru ach ha kodesh god's breath on water pass thru me
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crippled symmetry
(morton feldman performed by s.e.m. ensemble@new york studio school 4/3/05)
1.
pipes
straight-arced
mesh of gold/afloodstars
this is why crippled the leg always tries to rectify itself
verify tolerance / total spin cluster / why do you melt of the sheen
a double-backed diamond enamored of itself
high in the low-tones
grappling w/ the whole range of whiteness?
why so many bare & pockmarked walls in a structure so filled with its own knowledge
?
purpled pomped mallets
creased blue curtains exposing the fluted pale
lowbreathing carrier of greenglassed arpeggios
what is wrong w/ this picture is there is no picture
but what is wrong with blank space repeating itself?
is blank space truly blank as blank is?
why is there maiden transfixed when there are no maidens left to transfix?
a so lid tightly a jar was this lip a crossed/out patchwork
of genocide's attempt to corrupt itself?
it self always@the fore of my self your self by self by self one's & left everyone else be
damned this nagging notated pang. hands that drew the once blue silence
now emptied into emptiness. but what is so bad about blank space?
what is blank? why are these pocked & primed bare walls considered bare?
what is empty or full? what does filled with emptiness mean?
Longing? patches & spots of color on the earth brown floor
like there a spot of red & here a spill of animal yellow&orange
i can swim thru the hole in the broken brick
gnaw thru the metal's facade
what there is is more of the same
& more of the same is what there is but different
a crack in the quietude a sneeze a cough a rustle a rumble a low driven mimic
a crumble of what-is-where-from
& the crippling ringing of LIFE
2.
an o.k. survival kit
peek into space thru doorless doorway
look around sky itself is the skylight
see streaks of pale blue on earth-colored
floor
semi-circles of off colored creams
pull back
hit your forehead with your palm
quietly
scream OH NO loudly
inside your head
wash your hands of the whole affair
as your stomach begins to rumble like a coming quake
drink turpentine
glance at yourself in the bathroom mirror
smile fleetingly
walk into a stall
sit on the bowl & wait
a mesh of starlike petals unlock themselves from their grid
nothing left to follow.
3. piano lays out
c
12 17 (drops off the quantum )
30 24/ 30 36
54 (?)
working in *8's scale of
re mi fa circular linearities
single
note
clusters
forced to ignore 26/26/22/36// or
42 nothing matters 48/28
mathematics reg ///
4 / 4 / 8 10 6
stered 18 - 24 < 60
fence barelegged belch boo
tonicity
htdtAfbnmkxysu5ereNB VC567*)(*(* &%
intently listen
steve dalachinsky nyc
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these pink roses
( tchicai, smoker, hemingway, lane @ zebulon , bklyn 4/10/05 )
these pink roses
some plastic shrine
@ music's feet
unbroken divinity of eye / ear -
a prophecy deep from within the skull's roots
controlled miles of flexible oratory
bouquets of plasticity stretching the petals of the bell
this sun this bursting gaffaw
parked here at the edge of godsland any jackson knows
any queen whoever-shed-her-face-of-water knows
any revolutionary zookeeper knows
any weaver of lace knows
any gone logic device knows
any virgin in search of the mystery knows
these unwaving toxic neo-industrial sad unscented roses
enshrined @ the feet of music know
those at the helm of the ship know
that which guides the rudder knows
uncontrollability in an inflexible space
madmen know
scientists know
the spirits
know
the married know
the sick
the lame
the intolerant know
somewhere in their inflexibly religious souls
the long gones know it
deep within their long gone elegant
tombs
an unfathomable unity between forest & trees
first & last hucksters
even the hucksters know
the soft walls know
the high walls know
the low walls know
the hard walls know
"I kill Bad aMericans" - a harder groove / the gloss of pearls
this holy heliocent
world of round holidays
even the humans know
the war/mongers know
the survivors beneath our soles they know
twice octoped ghosts know
a sound-tale coming closer to inflexible plastic
the face of water
the quint of power
the laying on of long dawns
prio priopas achordin
prio priopas acru
loosen confusion & broaden forms
loosen confusion & bro a den forms
there's that second before the petals melt
that moment before the shrines collapse
when we realize we are all prophets
& fortune tellers
when we all see what the future holds
speaks
tastes
touches
smells
the wise ones know
the idiots know
the rootless know
the innocent know
the innocent know the innocent know..
steve dalachinsky nyc
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Contributor's Note: steve dalachinsky was born in brooklyn some time after the last big war and has managed to survive lots of useless little wars. his work appears in many journals on and off line around the globe. he has several books and cds of which the latest are, trial and error in paris, i thought it was the end of the world, st. lucie eyes on a plate, and the forthcoming chapbook in glorious black and white and the e-chap arivin' in the okidoke.
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